Grateful

Tonight I choose to focus on the gratitude in my heart. The years I spent with Rick are not null and void because he took his life. The years I spent with Rick were full of lessons and love.

Thank you, Rick, for buying this house with me.

Thank you, Rick, for adopting the cats with me.

Thank you, Rick, for teaching me too much energy is spent worrying about what other people think.

Thank you, Rick, for taking care of me when I was sick.

Thank you, Rick, for planning our honeymoon.

Thank you, Rick, for the beautiful crystal necklace and earrings you bought me as a graduate school graduation present.

Thank you, Rick, for always being so proud to be with me.

Thank you, Rick, for watching chick flicks with me when you didn't want to.

Thank you, Rick, for making a YouTube video with me.

Thank you, Rick, for taking the cats to the vet when I was at work or away from home.

Thank you, Rick, for getting rid of spiders for me.

Thank you, Rick, for keeping our house so clean.

Thank you, Rick, for mowing the lawn.

Thank you, Rick, for making me laugh.

Thank you, Rick, for going through fertility testing for me.

Thank you, Rick, for giving up alcohol.

Thank you, Rick, for adjusting your life to fit me in it. 

Thank you, Rick, for teaching me to be more spiritual.

Thank you, Rick, for being unconventional with me.

Thank you, Rick, for being so supportive through 3 years of grad school and a very hectic schedule.

Thank you, Rick, for going to family gatherings with me.

Thank you, Rick, for being such a thoughtful gift giver.

Thank you, Rick, for taking my car to the shop whenever something was wrong with it.

Thank you, Rick, for putting gas in my car.

Thank you, Rick, for driving me places.

Thank you, Rick, for making me maps or giving me directions to make me feel less anxious.

Thank you, Rick, for reading everything I wrote.

Thank you, Rick, for kissing me good night.

Thank you, Rick, for waking me up in the mornings so I didn't have to wake up to an alarm.

Thank you, Rick, for working hard.

Thank you, Rick, for loving me.