Thank You for the Wait

It's about that time of night when I settle into my thoughts and say thank you for all the things I'm grateful for today. There are a lot of them.

The lock screen on my phone is an image that says: Thank you, Universe, for all the good things in my life that I don't yet know about!!!

I like to see it a million times a day as a reminder.

For all the great things I have, feel, and know, I am thankful. For the rest yet to come, I will wait.

The Universe works at its own pace. And since my every day already holds great things, it's easy to believe that even better things are coming. As Tom Petty sings, "The waiting is the hardest part..." But I will always, always, always wait for the things that are worthwhile in this life.

A Hundred Years

The night gets away from me around the same time each night. My mind begins to wander. My thoughts begin to form worries and wishes. My memory becomes foggy. My sense of self becomes confused.

I feel like I live a hundred years each night as I go through different scenarios, fears, dreams, plans, memories, and questions. I lie in bed, living out my life - a long life - with tears and smiles and excitement and worry. I play out happy experiences and snatch them away, crying for myself, wondering how it will all really work out.

It's so tiring to live a hundred years every night. Every night. Every night.

I have a longing to feel safe. Secure. Comfortable. Comforted. 

I can wait. But I hope I won't have to wait too long.