You Get to Decide

I stumbled upon this tonight, purely by accident. But I have to say - I just love it!

"Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forwards."
"Life is either a daring adventure or nothing at all."
"I urge you to please notice when you are happy, and exclaim or murmur or think at some point, if this isn't nice, I don't know what is."
"The unexamined life is not worth living."
"Life is short, break the rules. Forgive quickly. Kiss slowly. Love truly. Laugh uncontrollably and never regret anything that makes you smile."

Life is a ride. A pretty cool ride actually. Every single day - no, every single moment - is a crossroads of some sort. You can take so many different paths - left, right, back, forward...you can even stand still. You get to decide. Even though there are so many curveballs, so many circumstances, so many risks, so many questions, so many positives and negatives, we get to decide what direction we take. And that in itself is empowering.

Trouble

Sometimes I feel like I'm losing my mind. Sometimes I feel like I'm having fun. 

trouble (verb):

1. to disturb the mental calm and contentment of; worry; distress; agitate

2. to put to inconvenience, exertion, pains, or the like

3. to disturb, agitate, or stir up 

trouble (noun):

1. unfortunate or distressing position, circumstance, or occurrence; misfortune

2. civil disorder, disturbance, or conflict

3. mental or emotional disturbance or distress; worry

I smile and smirk and daydream my way through a day, embracing risk and fun, but when it comes down to it, I don't want trouble... I don't want to be in trouble... and I don't want to be trouble. 

There are times I want to scream, "Please someone, help me get my crazy widow head on straight!"

There are other times I want to yell, "Let me do what I want! I'm an adult!"

To use a phrase from one of the definitions above, I feel stirred up. 

God, the problem is, I like that feeling. I like feeling stirred up... because I like to feel.