New

I feel more and more like my old self. But I feel different too. Newer.

Don't ask me how death and grief can make a person feel newer, but that's how I feel. It's something about the transition... something about the promise of better days ahead... something about knowing 100% that I can do whatever I want.

new (adjective):

- not existing before; made, introduced, or discovered recently or now for the first time.
- already existing but seen, experienced, or acquired recently or now for the first time.

Yes, that's exactly how I feel.

This life is new to me. And I accept the challenge.